Girl, Interrupted

Tangled hair, crazy attitude and practically a cigarette in someones hand in every scene. This movie almost made me go crazy with its fucked up views & literally getting in the minds of people who truly believe their ok. 

Psycho Mistress "Winona Forever"

Ok, Take Care

YOU FUCKING WISH.

crooked LIFE

(don't mind the mess, my twin was in the midst of moving out)

Shit has been so fucked up to me lately. I cant believe after everything that I've done, everything that I fought for, everything that I worked so hard to make work was thrown out the window. YEARS of work.Shit doesn't just happen. People let shit happen.

Well I wish my weight would stop fluctuating up & down and just stay STEADY. I always want to stay petite though. Finally went to see my twins apartment. Its really cute so happy for her I cant wait to have a happy ending for a new beginning if that makes sense. What was funny was on our way out to do a lil shopping I locked the bottom lock not knowing there isn't a key for it. I told her I'm leaving my bag and phone etc. She said she was too. I had a bad feeling about that because I felt like one of us should have a phone but we left without  them anyways -_- Coming back she unlocks the top lock and sees we cant get in then asks me "Please tell me you didn't lock the bottom lock!", I did. She was panicking, I was cool and collective. She hates her landlord she didn't want to go and see her. She didn't even know where her bf's job was and he was not coming home for like another 3 hours. My LIFE was on the other side of the door and we were basically screwed. But staying calm we took turns turning the knob trying to loosen it up. Finally I'm like ok Im just going to try and push it open and hope that the door doesn't break. (yeah as if my little ass can break a door -_-) Well, THESE HIPS DON'T LIE!!!! A lil nudge and turn of the knob & voila it opens kudos to muah :) I'm never locking that door again!

xo

WISHLIST

1. miu miu suede ankle boot
2. INVICTA Rose Gold watch
3. Jeffrey Campbell Lita Spike
4. Lorissa by Sam Edelman

These are to die for! well to me anywho :) Been shopping this whole weekend. One day I will get these babies but for now its something to lust over.

xo

Bridge over troubled Water

This day can go to hell. Straight to it. Its the day  I asked the Devil out. The best and worst day of my Life because I was taken on one Hell of a ride.

its a time. a day. a memory.

"I made you face your fears I think we could've made it
Thought I told you I loved you, maybe we should've waited
How could you ever doubt me when I stood by you proudly?
I would've gave my last breath Now you can't breathe without me"

DECEMBER

I cant believe its already December. These months are flying by. We put our tree up a couple of days ago, our fake tree :) We never bought a real one, not complaining but I hear they smell good.

Definitely in the Holiday spirit. I've been doing a whole lot of Xmas shopping. Trying to get my sisters out the way buying them what they actually want. I think I'm going to make a post of my wish list real soon.

Happy Holidays!  

xo

Little Weaklings

I haven't been feeling like my self lately. I feel weird. Physically weird. Some thing bad happened to me a month ago. My body really shot down on me. I blacked out I was fighting so hard to not lose myself but lost and went really numb. I was in the most excruciating pain. It was really bad. Well it sort of happened again only without the pain. I blacked out, went completely numb and I lost all color in me, I was really pale. Very long story short finally went to my doctor he took blood and is going to run a million tests and I mean really check all my organs and what not. I'm nervous. Hoping for the best. There's a light at the end of every dark tunnel right?

I swear misery loves company something bad is always happening to me. And on top of all this as IF my plate isn't already full I'm still dealing with petty bullshit. Looks are deceiving. I was stalked and harassed all weekend. This "guy" from HS thought I liked him. Trust me you'll know if I like you. And the only way is IF I tell you I like you. Well for whatever reason he thought I did, got completely rejected then proceeds to tell me RUDE things. Ugh so fucking typical of a guy. No fucking wonder you don't even have a girl. I was with someone for damn near 5 years. I never cheated on him & he knew about him! He asks me the same day if it was my bf in a music video. SMH and it gets better, he tells ME to delete his number. What are we 15? I never text him EVER! What a dumb ass. Do me a favor and crawl under a rock or bury your head in sand. You're irrelevant in my life.

xo