I met a new friend & he's nice when he wants to be :)
But now, I hear a lot of crap.
His own friend is talking all this crap
About him. Saying he's this & that.
She says he's "just jealous" not because of me or anything of that sort.
It's just weird & to be honest, I don't think we'll be more than just friends.
Unfortunately I come with a lot of baggage :(
& if I feel like they can't survive with me then why bother?
He has some baggage himself.
It's not like I was looking to make him mine or make me his.
I just want to have fun!
so in the meantime we'll just do what friends do.
ALL of his friends date each other & his friends kiss their friends boyfriends then date their friends ex-boyfriend & call them their boyfriend.
He always sticks up for the wrong people. He won't listen when I tell him he's wrong.
He never sticks up for me. I always have to fend for myself.
I'm there when MY world is against him. But he's no where to be found when they turn on me.
I told him I don't know what love is.
He told me I was dumb because it's right in front of me.
This can't be it.Can it?
& I will forever question it. How can you hurt the one you say you love the most?
I think it's the end of us so,
Thanks for putting up with me. Thanks for your patience. But I would have rather had honesty it would have made the difference.
Today I had a date with APPLE. I told him it wasn't working out. He was in denial the entire time. He was trying to make it work every way possible. He asked for advice which was a FAIL. Finally he realized it wasn't him it was me. I've been trying to tell him that from the beginning. He AGREED to give me a new love & I left APPLE a satisfied customer. :)
In English Please!
My i pod touch has been acting out lately. It wiped out my entire play list's & didn't want to sync any music anymore :( so I replaced it.
I make men of all ages look dumb. Let's say for example I was riding public transportation the other day & I was sitting next to a bunch of men. An old lady walks on & looks at them for a seat. They don't care. They're not sensitive. I like Sensitive guys. I give her my seat. I hear women whispering about these "men". "How inconsiderate of them!" "who do they think they are?" Then they look at me, because all eyes were on them & now it falls onto me.
I took a cab home the other day. I was with my liddle sis. The cab driver was nice. But since he had a THICK accent I couldn't understand a word he was saying to me. All I kept hearing was "your eyes are beautiful" & "face model". I guess he was trying to say I should be a model? I told him "THANKS!" but he kept going on & on. He wasn't even looking at the roads anymore he was looking at me! My liddle sis was sort of oblivious to what was going on since she had headphones on. I get this all the time & I have yet to be discovered by any one important. Not that I'm waiting for it to happen.
on my way to school, I had to buy a metro card. Going into the shop there was already a man in there. Buying lotto tickets. I didn't look at him. He had his back to me.He left before me. I chit-chatted then left after. I'm walking away & he calls after me. I tried to ignore him but he was coming closer. I turn around. He says "you have beautiful eyes" -THANKS! I never knew he seen my eyes since his back was turned to me. -_- Him: Are you married? Me:I'm not married *laughs* I have a boyfriend. Him: Just a boyfriend? nothing more? ME: NO! HIM: how old are you? Me: 19 HIM: *nods his head* Thats good enough for me. ME: *walks away.*
I guess this is how older men talk. They don't ask if you have a boyfriend just ask if your married. I don't even look old enough to even consider marriage!
On the train: Two cuties sit across from me. I'm like wow they're so cute! Turns out THEY were a "cute couple". A big disappointment to me. It's not so much because they were gay but because they were cute gay guys! So I had to just sit there & try not to watch them fondle each other meanwhile I get to my stop which they got off at as well! What a way to start my week with MEN -_-
I dyed my hair this morning! Maybe I should have asked for your opinions but it's kind of too late now. I went darker. It's a rich brown but it kind of, sort of looks BLACK right now -_- I really didn't want to go dark but it's hard having light hair & dark roots coming in. Anywho take a look! & tell me what you think. Is it a "Like" or a "What were you thinking!?" All criticism is welcome :)
My hair looks super DRY. I've been dying my hair since I was 13. I regret it because now I have to keep dying it unless I cut my hair short & let the roots grow out. I don't want short hair! :(
Have a lovely day :)
Yesterday I went to a mall in Jersey [Menlo Park] I really loved it there. We went shopping of course. My sis & I [well mostly me] kept trying things on.
I want those glasses which I didn't get because I knew that I can get them cheaper in the city & that liddle hat I forgot what its called.
Later ON we went out to eat to a Peruvian restaurant called Tumi Restaurant. I had no idea we were going to eat there because coincidentally I wore my Tumi necklace from Peru & bracelets. [Tumi Necklace in 1st photo].
I know that two wrongs doesn't make a right but how much more wrong doings can I take before I crack? Not much. With all the mistakes I've made I'm not sorry anymore. I know getting back at other's isn't the right answer but sometimes I just want to make them feel how I felt. Make them go through what I went through. Make them see what I seen. I'm not a cheater & certainly am NOT a liar. I don't sugar coat anything. I tell it how it is. It's why the truth hurts.
Eat The Truth RAW!
Revenge is sweet but Revenge is also a confession of pain.
"Victory is temporary for all of us" 3 yrs of believing what you thought was real but wasn't is a BLOW & a waste of time.
I GIVE UP!
I'm really approachable & I sometimes hate it because then I'm bothered a lot & when I'm bothered I get annoyed. Since I know a lot more of what I don't like I thought I'd do some Soul searching & write what I do like, what makes me happy & what makes me, ME I guess.
all types of delicious food.
nature. Can't u tell? :)
clothes but I still think we should be roaming the earth naked :]
men in black ;)
You. You & You!
Simple. Not shallow or picky. I'm not that hard to figure out but I can promise you I'm something much more than you're use to just a little more than what you can already handle but no too difficult to understand I'm just always misunderstood.
I've been M.I.A. from the Blogger world :) I hope everyone's been lovely & over all staying POSITIVE! I've been of course dealing with crap, meeting new people, & enjoying this lovely weather we've been having! Can you blame me?
So I received my social security card & it will be kept in a secret location :)