Mother bought me a book, she knows me so well because I haven't been able to put it down. A spiritual book. I'm beginning to have a "Spiritual Awakening" I can't explain it. Its amazing. I look at life a whole new way now. Sometimes we just don't have the right words to say how we feel, understand why things are and why you and I are even down here but I will say that Life is beautiful but it can be so fucked up too. Its a learning experience, even if bad shit happens it wouldn't have happened any other way. That's just the way it is. Something happened to me the other night. A sign. Its a shame my boyfriend didn't see it. But something tells me it was just for me to see.